i think i might die. its likely… right? 
 

It’s hard.to try and be happy, to make a change in this dismal depressed life ive started to lead. It’s hard to be happy when you’re confined by a few months to go out with your friends and be involved. It’s hard to be happy when somethis is always around the corner bringing me down. It’s harder to be happy when the one you love takes you nowhere and tells you he is done every week then changes his mind. It’s hard to be happy when someone you loved so much is gone, and gone forever.

But I will try. I want to try. But I just don’t know how. Or even where to start. I need the help of someone else, because I can’t do this alone. I’m too far gone.